It’s here! It’s hereeeeee! I’m so excited. I finally get to show everyone what I have been working on. This is my favorite part of the process. When I get to show youuuu!
We have yet to see if this will set me free, but so far the comments make me feel warm and happy. Also available on iTunes is the Piano Version of the song, which you might enjoy as well. And, of course, lyrics can be found under the “lyrics” tab here.
And, of course, the free mp3 of the “Be Mine” Robyn cover I posted earlier today is still available here.
I’m writing to you from the library at school today because Mondays are my long days. I’m at school from 7 a.m. to about 9:30 p.m. I should be finishing up some work, but we’ll chitchat for a bit because I have a few things to say. And because if I don’t take a break I’m going to explode.
First, I uploaded a free mp3 of that “Be Mine” Robyn cover I sang in a video a while back. You can download that here!
Second, I finished April’s song, “I Still Wonder.” It turned out pretty good I think. I’ve sent it to Adam and Tyler and I need to send it to Korey, Michael, Johnee, and Millie, too. They’re my music critic homies. But so far, so good. Finishing a song is the best feeling. I’ve got ideas for a music video, it’s now just a matter of doing it. I started on a couple songs that could possibly be for May. Like I always say, you gotta stay ahead of the game, kids.
And finallyyyyyyy, “THIS SONG IS ABOUT YOU” COMES OUT TOMORROW! Which means I’ll be up late uploading the video tonight. I guess it’s already technically out in Australia and over there, and it’s about to come out in the UK in a couple hours as I write this. This is the most excited I’ve been about a song so far. Check out the lyrics in the “lyrics” tab and get out the Boones Farm and mug for a BlogTV show tomorrow night!
Now that I’ve sufficiently hyped it up, be prepared to be let down lol. Story of my lifeeeee.
Gotta run to class. I’ve been queasy all day and so tired. Let’s hope I can make it home without incident.
xoxo.
-joe.
P.S. I know I don’t get a lot of comments, but those who do: I have the BEST commenters ever.
I just came across some really really bad comments. One was thumbs-downed 12 times so I couldn’t read it, but I got the gist of what it said from the replies to it. I removed them all, but thanks for those people backing me up on my private life.
All I really want to say is that if I REALLY am the one to blame for all the shit that’s gone down in the past few months, would I still be living in a place like this? Alone and confused at everything that has transpired in the past year of my life? Does this sound like the way I imagined everything going in a million years? People ask me all the time why I stay here if I don’t like it. It sounds SO simple to just pack up and move, but I have school to think about and other obligations concerning my lease. I’m SO close to finishing and my degree isn’t offered at any of the other AI’s without having to push my graduation date wayyyy back. Do people honestly think I haven’t looked at every.single.possibility of how to get out of place? Running away from your problems isn’t always a great solution.
I want to foremost say that no one is actually to blame. Things happen and life cycles in and out. I’m learning to be thankful for the good things and and bad things as well. Everyone I’ve met has been a great person, and sometimes things change or grow apart, that’s all. I keep sane NOT by telling myself that everything happens for a reason, but that everything that happens is something to grow from. I also want to say I have no control over other people’s actions and all I could do at some points were try to persuade other’s actions in a different way without avail. But just because some people have chosen one path, doesn’t mean I choose the same.
But I don’t want anyone’s pity either. I’m making it just fine on my own. Some have said I seem happier lately. And maybe my way of dealing with it is just laughing at everything, because that’s all I can do lately. I’m so surprised at how strong I am every single day and how I’m moving onward, making friends, finding love, and kicking ass in school.
I’ve said it before. I have six months to make things right. I am determined leave Philadelphia with every single loose end tied up nice and tidy. No bridges burned, and no feelings kept ill.
I never wrote about NYC! I had SUCH a blast with Molly and Michael, as usual. I got another tattoo while I was up there. You can click here to see a photo of it.
I’ve also been running around like crazy getting work done. Sunday night and Monday night together I only got 5 hours of sleep. My classes have been surprisingly very demanding this quarter. I just keep telling myself it’ll be over in four weeks! Next quarter should be SO much easier. AND I’m making friendssssss in class! I feel like such a little kid telling you that but it seriously makes me so excited.
Last night and today I worked pretty much nonstop on April’s song because I really should’ve already had it done and submitted by now. It’s called “I Still Wonder” and you can see the cover art below. I’m totally in love with the song. I’m still mixing it but I think it’s going to turn out great. I’ll preview it for you guys soon!
And obviously March’s song is out Tuesday! I get more excited every day for it. I just really hope people like it and the video. I put up the lyrics already, which you can find under the “lyrics” tab (obviously). I uploaded another preview of it to my own channel which you can see here:
“Come On, Sugar” did really well actually, which really surprised me lol. It kept popping up on various blogs and websites in my Google Alerts (I stalk myself online, sigh). Here’s one article from the OhBoyMagazine website!
So it’s been a pretty successful past few days. And for the first time I don’t really have any songs lined up for the future, so maybe that’ll get me time to really focus on the next one and work on writing.
Just a reminder, the release partayyyy for March’s song will be on BlogTV, Tuesday at 7:30 p.m. Bring a mug and a bottle of Boone’s Farm!
If I packed up my stuff tonight and left Philadelphia, I wouldn’t cry. I wouldn’t cry at all. And that makes me really sad.
I have cried when I have left many places and people in life. That’s a very good thing. Crying makes you seem real, and crying can mean you had a great time and you are sad it’s coming to an end.
I’ve lived in Philly a year now, and it has been a year for a lot of things. Learning, growth, change. Someday I’ll look back on this and be so thankful. But if I left tomorrow, I’d just let out a sigh of relief.
I graduate in September. In all likelihood I will leave then as well, if not soon after. I want to be able to cry when I leave. I have seven months to turn this around. Maybe it’s too late to make anything lasting happen here. Maybe it’s too late to make anything I’ll miss. Everything I’ve ever cried over I miss deeply.
I feel like maybe it is starting to happen, though. Maybe something is happening that I will miss. This city is showing me a few things and a few people.
I just know that when I leave here, I want to put in my headphones. I want to turn on “Vision One” by Royksopp. I want to close my eyes, and I want everything that has happened in Philadelphia in the days, months, years of my time here to flash through my mind. Good things, bad things, skyline, faces, places, pain, healing, forgiveness. I want to feel it all in that one moment when I leave. And I really want to be sad. And I really want to cry.
